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[e_delmar]

What with one thing and another, it's late when Ennis gets back. Late enough it's closer to when the sun rises than when it set. And Ennis-


well, Ennis reeks like cigarettes and booze and sweat and women and he's nearly stumblin' on his feet.


No shape to be goin' back to Junior, at any rate. So instead, he stumbles along the hallways and has to bang on the door a few times before he can get it open. There's a loud scraping of a chair across the floor, and a drunken "shhhhhhhhhh" from Ennis as he swings the door shut.

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[jack_f_twist]

And that makes Jack's mouth curve into a twisted smile, and he glances over, dark hair rustling against the pillow case.

"Sure wish there were somethin I could do to help you out, bud. Don't want you--"

Ending up like me.

But he stops, shuts up.






"You need me t'do anythin? You just say it." And hell, it's as close to making a swear that Jack has ever come that didn't involve his wedding vows.

[e_delmar]

There's a sound that would be words, if he could get 'em out.


Words like, I just need this, and come back to the mountains with me, but he ain't never had those words, even without somethin' like this hanging over his head, and all that comes out is a choked sob.

[jack_f_twist]

"Hey," and for all his roughness, Jack can be gentle sometimes, and he reaches out for Ennis, strokes a calloused hand over the thinning hair. For once, he ain't got much to say, but if it ain't words Ennis needs or wants, well, that's fine by him. He kisses along Ennis' forehead instead, leans down to kiss his mouth.

[e_delmar]

Ennis reaches for Jack like he's air, like he's everything he needs, like he can keep him alive. And then he's collapsing again, hands squeezing tight, and cursing a blue streak.







Low, quiet, like he's talkin' to himself-

"It ain't gonna be alright."


Not this time.

[jack_f_twist]

"The fuck it isn't."

Jack couldn't save himself

(or, well, he probably could have tried harder, but as it is, no)

and there's nothing he can do now to save Ennis and he has never hated anything so much as this feeling of hopelessness. So he lies, and hopes even harder--except--

Except maybe he ain't quite so sure what it is he's hoping for.

[e_delmar]

Ennis only knows one thing to hope for, and he ain't sure enough of it to say it out loud, so he don't. Instead he holds on tight, face wet.